My Starting Weight

My Starting Weight: 246.6

This kills me to type. I am OVER 100 lbs over weight.

I cannot sit here and dwell over this number. If I do, this number will keep creeping up and up. If I EVER go over 250 lbs I will be so disappointed in myself. Don't get me wrong, I already am extremely disappointed in myself. I can't believe I have let myelf get so off track. I will just start from here and get this weight off. Heres are my "mini" goals..

First, I want to go down by 10's. So my first goal will be to hit the 30's, then 20's, and so on.

Second, I want to hit the 100's. Once I hit 199 that will be a very very happy day. I havent seen that in about 5 years. Its going to take probably 6 months but you better bet your butt that I will make it :)

Third, My ultimate goal will be to lose 100 lbs. So be right around 150lbs. I dont have any exact weight right now. I will just have to see when I get there. I really am not even worried about the "number" but the size. Ok no, that came out wrong. I am worried about the number, because thats what all the DR's are worried about a yada yada. But I want to be down to a size 10ish. Right now I am an 18/20. I actually dont know what size I am for sure. I wear maternity jeans/jean shorts. I cant remember the last time I wore an "actual" pair of jeans. They are not comfortable to me. I dont like the buttons and zippers and the maternity's dont have that. Same with shorts. They are just so much more comfortable. For me right now, comfort is all that matters. I have a pair of 15's that are normal jeans. That will be my first goal for clothes to be able to fit in them. I think I wore those about 3 years ago. I remember the first time I couldnt fit into them. We were getting ready to go to dinner for my Fiance's Birthday. I was running late and just decided to throw on a pair of jeans. That is when I discovered they did not fit anymore, and since that day, I have not worn them.

On a different note. There is a show premiering on Monday, May 30 called Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition. I dont know about you guys, but when I watch shows like this, it inspires me to lose weight and workout. Just like, I Used To Be Fat. I really loved that show and I hope they do another season of it!

Please email me if you have any questions, mybigchange@yahoo.com

Thanks for reading!