Hello & Welcome To My BIG Change:)

Hello To Whomever Is Reading,

Thank you for coming along with me on the journey that will be changing my life forever. Weight Loss. I am proud to start this blog and share with the world the struggles I have gone through and the choices I have made in my life that have gotten me where I am today. I know this is going to be a very challenging journey.

I have been saying for years and years that I am going to lose weight. It has never happened. I dont think I really ever wanted it for "ME". You have to want something for yourself to be able to succeed. I have tried buying smaller clothes to hang on the wall to see everyday, that didn't work. I tried buying a bikini to hang on the wall, that didn't work. It will not work if you dont work hard at it and TRY. That is my problem, I wasn't trying. I will be the first person to admit, I am soo soo lazy! I will try to avoid doing the smallest things. Examples: Have someone get a drink for me, when I can get up and get it myself. Have someone else let my dog's out because I am to lazy to get up and do it myself. All of this nonsense has to stop! There is absolutely no excuse for me to be that way. None. What.So.Ever.

I have gotten to the point where I am disgusted to look at myself in the mirror. I don't want to wear anything except for leggings/sweats and a big baggy t-shirt.

I have come up with some things that I will accomplish. I have no set an exact time on when these things will be done by but these are goals of mine that I want to start. Here they are:

1. Workout atleast 30 min a day [for the first 30 days] Then bump it up for 60 min.
2. Walk the dogs atleast twice a day.
3. No fried foods!
4. Try atleast 1 workout class this summer.
5. Wear an outfit out of my comfort zone.
6. Drink WATER WATER WATER.
7. Drink only one cup of coffee a day [this is a huge one for me! I drink probably 3-4 cups a day and put lots of sugar in it!]
8. Drink more hot tea [EX: Green Tea]
9. Make a food journal
10. Stop putting myself down and having negative thoughts.

These are just some of my personal goals that I would like to accomplish. And I want you all to know, I am saying e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g on here. This is going to be like my journal that I come to when I need to let something out or anything. I think that will help me succeed. There might be 1 post a day, there might be 4 or 5. It depends on the day and how I am feeling.

I am doing this blog because I want to share my story with people. If I can atleast influence one person to do this with me, or lose weight I will feel like I have done my job. Even if there is only one person reading this..That's OK! So long as I inspire ONE person! I think me putting everything out there, will help people, of all ages! BTW, I am 20 years old. I will be 21 in 2 months.

This is my thought process on weight loss..I am 20 years old. I have lived 20 years of my life overweight. It has never been to this extreme, but I have always been overweight. Middle School I was a size 12. [which I would kill to be at right now!] In my Freshman year of High school I was a size 14. After I met my now, Fiance, through out 5 1/2 years I have gained 80 pounds. I am now 240lbs, my heaviest. I am not going to lie and say "Im only 200lbs!" because I am not and that would not help me with my weight loss process. So my starting weight is 240lbs give or take a couple lbs. I will give you EXACT weight in my next posting. [i will weight myself in the morning] Anyway, getting back to what I was saying..I am only 20 years old. I havent even lived half my life. Why would I waste anymore time being miserable, and uncomfortable in my body. I was at the gym one time and a lady that worked there came up and said to me "So are you trying to lose weight?" I said Yes. She said "Treat your body good, your the one who has to live in it the rest of your life" I will never forget that. It is so true. I was just thinking the other day, A year has now passed since I have done personal training..I could've stuck with it and lost my 80lbs I wanted to lose. It makes me extremely disappointed in myself. If I keep putting it off like I have been, I will be an old woman and it will be to late. I am young, I need to do it now while it is easier. Once I hit my 30's I have a feeling it wont be very easy. One year or even two years of my life, isnt that long when I think about it, and how it will change the rest of my life.

I get very discouraged when I am working out and get so out of breath I cant breathe. I feel light headed, and just need to sit down. I have chest pains that I have had for alittle over a year now. I am on meds for it. [Opposite side of my heart,thank goodness] I dont know what it is, but it does get aggervated when I workout, so I have to be careful. I do not have patients when it comes to "being patient to see results" I want to see them right then and there! LOL, I know that isnt going to happen!

This workout plan, and all my goals are going to start June 10th-ish. I am currently on vacation and will be ready to go when I get home. I will be posting everyday. I'm not sure if I will be posting my journal entries for my food, unless you all want me too. Please let me know. If anyone reading this has any requests of postings, or questions, I made a specific email just for that. It is mybigchange@yahoo.com I will check it everyday. I will also be posting pictures so I can see my progress along the way.

Please, If you are reading this and want to hate, and call me fat and anything else, Just leave. I do not need to hear that. I've heard that word way to many times in my lifetime and that is why I am putting myself out there for everyone so I can change myself, so I can be happier. So don't hate. This is for people trying to change their life just like me!

I want to thank my friends who are always there for me, and will listen to all my complaints that I have. The three people that mean the most to me in all this is: Blake, My Fiance,Jamie, My Best friend & Tara, My Best Friend<3 thank you guys so much for being there for me always and supporting me!